My Shadow

It's been a long time right? I don't feel like want to write anything at here cuz this blog is no longer special anymore but this was the only place that I have to say anything that I want. Actually, I feel quite normal nowadays and it's funny because I feel like I don't need anyone now. Maybe it is enough for me to be like this everyday. I get a lots of loved and I get a lots of work. I know that I can be success because I believe in myself so much. It also weird when I saw some of the couple on internet spend their time together and look so happy, because every time I saw they happy, I always remember the hard time I have been go through in my past relationship.. For me, being in a relationship destroy myself a lots.

Hope, Love, Married.. scare me a lots. I hate the fact that everything is trauma for me. I'm just so afraid of people in this world, everyone looks so bad in my eyes.. Maybe, because of that I stay at home everyday and I'm happy without going out. I feel a lots better for not seeing any human.. I lock myself in my room all day and being so hard working to achieve everything I want, so people never look down on me.. and no one would ever dare to come approach me like I'm easy in their eyes.

I hate the fact that people like me, thinking that I would accept them just because I'm being kind.. They take my kindness in a wrong way and it makes me hate people more. By the way, I'm gonna just live my life. I just follow my own shadow, no need for me to follow other shadow.. it was more afraid.