First and Last

2022 begins.

Actually I feel soo happy nowdays. It's hard to believe that I am happy because I always having a sad life. Since I was a kids, my happiness never stay longer.. Now that I am happy, I feel like I could do anything by myself. There are lot of things that I want to achieve and a lots of thing that I want to do. I have my own wishlist for the first time and I'm glad that the past didnt haunt me. It's been almost 5 month for me to overcome my depression. I'm glad that I am no longer meet the sad girl that I knew before. I love to be alone and I like to be alone. I realized that there are many people out there who loves me and love who I am. Being with a people that loves me, give me so much happiness.

AHhh! and I found another things! I found my own happiness! I found seventeen🤍 I feel regret because I am so late for stanning them.. I should know them earlier so I don't think I need anyone✨ Now that there are something that never left me, I feel so safe... Whatever people think of me, doesn't matter now because people should be jealous of me for having such a happy day everyday🌼 I did a good well, I forgot the past and I am so excited to make a new future of me💝 I am so busyy with everything now and I loved the busy me. I love the independent me, the happy me, the pretty me and everything about me.

Of course, there are many people that judge me so hard. They look at me like I'm crazy and living in my own imagination life. You know what? I'm living in my realistic life right now.. They exist in this world and they are real.. they did their best to give the best music to the fans who love them and I really admire them a lots.. Through hard things happen they never give up and they are so passion.. They just never failed to make their fans happy, spread a lots of positive things.. thats why I learn so many things about life because of them. The words, their music is all my comfort. You could feel all the words they said was from their heart and it was so pure.. You know what, my past life was never beautiful.. I don't even know how to smiling and friendly.. 

Right now, I don't even care about what people say because I don't live for them, I live for myself and in the future, I would countinue do that. No one would ever get a free pass from me now. I would never ever let any human to hurt me anymore and no more sad girl from me. I'm doing fine and great with my life and I don't need anyone to find me. I hope everyone mind their own bussiness. My bussiness is not for them to settle. Don't hoping that I would change because I would never ever did that. I don't want to lose this version of myself again just because of human.

What matters the most now is..

I have my own precious life🤍