WHEN YOU STRUGGLE TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN WHAT WAS REAL AND WHAT WASN’T

I always think that the people who make drama has many experience because I don't know why but some of it, I can relate to it. More like I can feel it whenever that things happen. It may looks pain and happy sometimes but deep inside no one knows how it feels.. The main character never have a sad ending so I wonder why the normal character hurt the most.. doesn't matter they good or bad but they just have a sad life in their story. Their love is just not worth it because people being focusing on the main character. I wonder who hurt the most. The main character that will end up together or the normal character that will only in love with  their own fantasy. I may not be like the main character because.. l can't rely to anyone, so I rely to myself everyday. I have gone bad and good day... It just that I don't feel it is fair because I can feel the sadness everyday but only feel happiness for only a few seconds and it easily gone right away.. Is that how the normal character feel? Or it is just me who feel like different and weird because I think we're the same...

I should think about it again.. what was the best ending for that character. Eventhough it was just a drama but sometimes it can go to our heart.. and sometimes they can feel what we exactly feel when no one care.. So, my point it there are no different between real or not.. It just a same.. because each person have their own story life and that's was their own drama.. It's up to theirself what ending it will be like.. but... doesn't dissapear sounds better? being invisible because you just not worth it to being in people life.. It's funny when I taught that life is full of good people.. I taught that I am good but for sure I am one of those who being bad just because I am weird and crazy.. overthinking about my life, my emotions, my past and story.. It's not a big deal but for me, it changes me so many ways..

Make a small circle in my life and I taught it will stay but the stupid me just being left one by one.. For them maybe life is easy because people can come or go and they taught it will not hurt anyone.. That's why I'm happy... I'm just happy that I don't need to relay my happiness to anyone.. I just need to be with myself and go to whatever place that I want... maybe at the high place, far away, quite place, save and fresh.. May Allah will countined open my heart..