FOR WHAT?

Suddenly I feel like want to share my story for today, so yeah as you guys know.. I am easily get depress over somethings even a little things especially when I'm mad. When I can't control my temper, I will cry out because I can't be mad or shout.. So I want to directly tell everyone who reads this about what I want in my life since I don't really know for what am I living now..

so the first things is I want to go far away from everyone alone because I am the happiest person when I am alone, I can do everything that I want or I loved without being mad or stressful. I don't need to make everyone satisfied with me or care about what they said.. so I want to live far far far away, I want to dissaper from people eyes or their life..

which is means I want freedom.. I want to be free in order to be happy..

seconds thing is I want to have my own life, I want to spend time alone and try to love myself better.. I want to spend my money at the things I like and do everything I want without being worried about everything.. I just want to have my own private times..

thirdly, I want to be gone or have a sickness to know the reason I am living in this live.. because right now, I am living just to satisfied everyone.. I do what they want me to do and they never care what I am doing.. Eventhough I am the best student, it just useless.. when I never feel happy.. I don't know what I am proud of..everything just useless.. I don't know why my life since so.. dark soo helpless and useless...

to tell the truth.. I feel like dying at the highest level but I try my best to be strong as I can..

so to the people out there.. please help me.. I am currently feel wanna dead when I am not supposed to think that..

and yeah thank you for reading this..