SCARED OF LOVE

Hi, My name is DeadRose.. Today I wanna shared something to you guys about my confusing life about love.. I actually start to regret many things.. Suddenly I feel like I want to be alone. I want to be alone.. I want to be alone.. I am not supposed to make people heart like this.. I think that my heart is always changed.. All of the other boy do make my heart happy and flutter but none of them make me feel safe and insecure.. All of them is the same for me.. Now I know why someone people end up being alone.. I think I know now why.. So I think that I want to shut all of that people and said that.. I want to be alone.. I want to focus on my study more.. I don't want to be like this.. I don't want to xhanged myself or fake myself.. I want to end this.. I don't want this things to happen.. I don't want to make people think that I played with people heart when inside me was confusing and hard.. I think its not the times for me to be in love.. I am not ready to have a bf.. I am not ready to be in love yet... I want to fall in love in study and myself.. I want to be alone again.. I want to be myself.. I don't want this minderstood to happen.. I want to stop myself for liking to many people.. I'm so sorry for those people who likes me but U just think u guys as my friend.. u guys are kind to me.. really kind but my heart was not ready to accept anyone soo... I'm sorry.. I am not a kind person.. I am a really bad person.. so sorry.. I dont want this.. this will be the last times..