I'M OKAY..

So.. I actually really really regret actually when I first come into that house because I was so freaking spechless by every people around me.. They all know who is me and what I am before but that was in the past.. I taught that everything was gonna be okay but I keep feeling nervouse and my eyes has nowhere to go.. I want to look at someone but I can't so I avoided all the eyes and gaze.. I keep calm down myself for a moment and telling myself that everything is gonna be okay. I try to be brave and of course I did it but my confident was so low that time.. I was so damn shy and realize how ugly I am right now infront of everyone.. In a few hours, everything seen to be okay and I am glad that there was not so many people so I taught that it was okay for me to be a little confident and talk to people that are around me.. right?? At first, of course I fell regret but later on.. I start to feel really thank you to my friends that has done this.. because it make me feel happy for a second.


Yes! of course I feel happy because I got to meet someone that I would taught that I would never meet forever.. I'm glad that you are fine and healthy.. I'm also glad to see you smile and happy which make me feel really glad that you are okay without me. I hope that you will stay like that forever so that I wouldn't worried that much about you. Actually that time when I was talking to you.. I feel happy maybe because it has been a long time for me to hear that kind of voice..even it was for a second.. I still feel happy about you.. Thanks for willing to talk with me even for a second.. A second is like a gold to me.. I hope you feel the same too eventhough it impossible.. It almost impossible to me actually to stay strong when I was in that house.. I try to not show any of my feelings... I just feel uncomfortable at first but it's okay after that.. by the way, I'm okay..