Just a Stranger...

I'm actually not ready to see or face him..
It's break my heart everytime I think of him and I don't know why I feel so sad..
Maybe because we made such a beautiful memories that I would never forget it..
And It's really hard to forget everything and restart my feeling..
I just hate the way we both didn't talk or chatting with each other like we used to be..
And that was one of the reason why I hate us being together not as a friend..
Because once we both being partner, everything gonna be different because we so in love with each other...
And I taught that eventhough we break up, we still can be friend at least but why..
But why today and now, we being.. Such a stranger.. It's looks like we both didn't know each other.
I hate that we both being so uncomfortable when we see each other..
It was so damn awkward until I feel like I'm gonna dying and I can't even breath..
It is all because of you.. Because we both being so stupid with each other.. Because we both being such a cowards.. Because we both have so many fear inside..
And I hate that so much.. I hate we both being like this.. At least, eventhough we being friend, we don't feel shy at all like a stranger..
I just hope that.. Everything gonna be back to normal..
Like it used to be..

Lost your friend, it's like you lost your precious things ever.. And it doesn't make you happy.. And of course, I'm not happy at all..

And I know everything happen because of me.. Because of my ego as a girl.. And Because I am so mad that you never understand me.. I know it's all my fault.. And we both know that we're wrong..

I wish that one day, we both realize that how big our mistake today..